Anyone…. Hello is anyone out there?... anyone?
What am I supposed to do?... why is this happening. There is a way to stop it—there must be a way. Anyone who’s listening, just say something; Oh, God anything I can’t take the silence I’ll do anything to hear another voice, do you hear that? Anything? I have money way too much if you’re listening, whoever you are, wherever you are, you can have it all just a word a sound, you have to be just as lonely. COME ON!! Is this the end? I don’t want to die, Ha! Like I need to say that out loud. Who wants to die?
“I’ll do anything to end this, just wake up from this nightmare. Do you hear that God, Allah, Jesus, Buddha,the light, Nirvana whatever you’re called, whoever you are anything. I’ll preach your word to everyone I see, I’ll sacrifice a million animals, I’ll give all I have everything I own, ANYTHING!... Anyone home? I never thought you were real, everyone who believes says you bring comfort hope. Well I’m willing to believe! Where is my comfort?! Why is there no hope?!...
“You’re not real. You never were. This stupid scapegoat for a simple mind this delusion of a deity just wasted precious time. Very little of that left now, unless I succeed. Only me without help from any nonexistent omnipotence!”
Heavy coughing used to cover up quiet sobs is heard as the playback stops. The strange ironic sense of silence in the midst of noise fills the absence left after Dr. Adam’s angry and despondent yelling subsides. Until, of course, the computer begins the next recording.
“Sadly I long for a news station, any of them. I wish someone could tell me the death count. How many humans still roam the earth, see if anyone is still out there?...”
Minutes turn to hours. The recording does not stop but no words come out, near silent sobs can be heard intermittently. More often are the heavy dry coughs signaling the infection’s advancement; eventually the steady breathing of sleep is the only sound coming from the computer. The fires that rage just outside are carefully considering their next approach to one of the last intact buildings on earth.