Running Against Time
The clock on the wall ticks away seconds, measuring your life.
One Mississippi, two Mississippi, three...
A first grader learns to tell time and watches the
tick-tock
of the clock and time moves
slowly
for her
and she dreams about it speeding up and bringing her to adulthood, where she'll be a famous ballerina or a fashion designer and won't have to listen to her parents anymore.
One Mississippi, two...
At thirteen she stares at the clock,
tick-tock,
wishing she could be six again
when her biggest problem was only having cherry pops
when she wanted grape
and wondering what happened to the time in between then and now – it seems to be moving faster –
and at the same time wishing she could fast forward because time still moves too
slowly and she thinks she's going to be stuck in middle school hell for the rest of her life.
Tick-tock.
She stares at the clock
tick
on her twenty-first birthday
tock
remembering that miserably moody thirteen year old
and knowing she's really an adult now.
One Mississippi...
Time ticks faster on the clock because each second is a smaller fraction of her life now, and she wonders why she rushed to this point only to have time speed up.
Tick-tock, tick-tock.
Whatever happened to the plans she had when she was younger and waiting to be an adult.
One Mississippi...two...
How many seconds were left and how fast would they go? Forty years now, and each second was shorter than the one before.
Tick.
Tock.
It's going too fast.
One Mississippi...
Tick...
Eighty years old and staring at the clock next to the hospital bed...
Tock...
What happened to when time was slow?